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I want to kill myself?

I want to kill myself? Topic: Reasons to give homework
June 25, 2019 / By Elkanah
Question: I have tried to feel better about everything in my life, but I've just decided to give up. I'm 14 and I know that I'm young, but I just don't care anymore. I've lost a lot in life. I know it sounds stupid but I want to die cuz I lost my security blanket. I'm sick of people saying it was all for the best and that I was too old for it. It was like a best friend to me and I never hurt anyone with it and it never stopped me from doing anything. as a matter of fact it actually helped me get through a lot. I wake up everyday and cry cuz it's gone and all the memories of it haunt me. I never found out where it was and I can't retrace my steps. I've tried every source of answers and I've even gone through therapy and am about to get meds.my family thinks I'm okay tho I've told them over and over that I'll kill myself. the only things I'm scared for is that I might go to Hell and I'm also my dad's only child and I feel horrible for wanting to die, but I really want to kill myself. I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I really feel like I'm gonna do it soon. I'm just sick of waking up everyday and going through that day feelin like a zombie. I don't wanna live anymore. I don't know any other answers and I don't know how to do this anymore......I just don't know what to do anymore.... YES I'M SERIOUS!!! I hate when people tell me how stupid it is for me to want to kill myself ove rmy blanket. It was taken from me because inconsiderate family members didn't understand how much it meant to me. I loved that thing and yeah it would've been ratty and messed up by now but I still would try my best to keep it in a decent state. I wanted to have it forever and it was just snatched way from me. I had it for 7 years and I had many memories from when I was younger attached to it. I can't go through how much it meant to me cuz I don't know exactley why it meant so much. All I know is that I want it back sooooo bad and I would do anything to find answers and I've tried every answer that I can on Earth. I've prayed to God for answers. and I think the only way I'll be able to find answers is when I die. I wouldn't kill myself for answers tho. I just hate bein depressed and unhapppy nd I knw there's a big future ahead of me but I don't want to have to face it with depression. :( I've tried therapy and suicide hotlines. The suicide hotline person was wothless and she sounded like she could care less if I killed myself as long as she got her paycheck that week. She was a *****! and I go to therapy but the therapist seems to get fed up with the fact that it's hard for me to move on. I hate change and she wants me to just move on. I can't just let go of my security blanket. People don't understand. Everyday is like torture. It's like my own mind is attacking me. I'm constantly having thoughts about suicide and my security blanket. I just don't know what to do anymore. I know my family would be devastated but I don't wanna suffer anymore. Sorry I'm adding so much, but things just come to me as I get more replies. I cry everytime I think about leaving my dad. I'm his only reason to live. My parents got divorced last year and besides me all my dad has is his dog. Me and our dog is the only thing that keeps him going. I don't wanna hurt my dad cuz he has so much high hopes for me. and I always wanted to have children and be happy but I don't wanna live my life being depressed. whatever Brmarlin.. I don't care what u say anyway.. Thanx everbody else for the answers.
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Cheyenne Cheyenne | 2 days ago
Ok, so it's good that you have gone through therapy and that you're receiving meds, it's a start. But, you have got to remember all the GOOD, happy things in life. Your father, for instance, he would feel horrible as well as the rest of your family because you told them you were going to kill yourself and they didn't even flinch. They would regret all that silence and grey area between you and them. They could be in the same boat as you are in right now if you were gone. This life changing affair could have consequences not known to you. Your father could go crazy. He could start drinking, getting into bad drugs, and maybe even killing himself. You are the world to your father, I know that for a fact. Think about all the things you used to care about and for. Think about your friends, even if you're not friends anymore they will still care. Your past teachers, classmates, schools, and even all your school activities. It may not seem like it matters now, but you will only notice that it is important when it's gone. These people will wonder what went wrong and where? Maybe someone looked up to you, you probably didn't know, but I bet someone looked up to you for just who you were. They would try to be just like you. You can't let them if you're gone at 14 years old. What kind of role model would you be? Those memories that were so dear to you would just go away. You won't have them anymore even if you tried your very hardest to remember them, you won't. Maybe there are bad memories and you could care less if you could never remember them ever again but the good ones. Those are the ones that you wanted to keep and cherish but you've lost them forever. You also won't get that heart-stopping feeling when you see your crush walk down the hall. That hating feeling of the most popular girl at school. You won't hear the teacher yelling at you to turn in your homework. All of these little things are special and are in our life for a reason. We are granted, graced, and blessed to recieve these little mile-stones in life. You have no idea how much you matter and to how many people. This CAN NOT be your last summer! It can't because you matter!!!!
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Cheyenne Originally Answered: I want to kill myself?
Ok, so it's good that you have gone through therapy and that you're receiving meds, it's a start. But, you have got to remember all the GOOD, happy things in life. Your father, for instance, he would feel horrible as well as the rest of your family because you told them you were going to kill yourself and they didn't even flinch. They would regret all that silence and grey area between you and them. They could be in the same boat as you are in right now if you were gone. This life changing affair could have consequences not known to you. Your father could go crazy. He could start drinking, getting into bad drugs, and maybe even killing himself. You are the world to your father, I know that for a fact. Think about all the things you used to care about and for. Think about your friends, even if you're not friends anymore they will still care. Your past teachers, classmates, schools, and even all your school activities. It may not seem like it matters now, but you will only notice that it is important when it's gone. These people will wonder what went wrong and where? Maybe someone looked up to you, you probably didn't know, but I bet someone looked up to you for just who you were. They would try to be just like you. You can't let them if you're gone at 14 years old. What kind of role model would you be? Those memories that were so dear to you would just go away. You won't have them anymore even if you tried your very hardest to remember them, you won't. Maybe there are bad memories and you could care less if you could never remember them ever again but the good ones. Those are the ones that you wanted to keep and cherish but you've lost them forever. You also won't get that heart-stopping feeling when you see your crush walk down the hall. That hating feeling of the most popular girl at school. You won't hear the teacher yelling at you to turn in your homework. All of these little things are special and are in our life for a reason. We are granted, graced, and blessed to recieve these little mile-stones in life. You have no idea how much you matter and to how many people. This CAN NOT be your last summer! It can't because you matter!!!!

Amaria Amaria
Listen, your baby isn't even aware of anything at this point. It can't be scared and will have no concept or understanding of even existing. Yes you're too young to have a child, especially if you can't raise or take care of it, but killing yourself does nothing. Since you believe in god and heaven why not just wait and live your life until you die of natural causes? You'll be with it eventually regardless. Honestly it sounds like you're really not thinking clearly and need some help. Talk to someone ASAP.
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Tiffani Tiffani
Here is a different idea How to begin on a path to self healing and spirituality? 1) Silently in your own thoughts ask for "The Spirit that Created All things" [1] to come into your life. 2)Still silently ask the Spirit for His name. You probably do not already know it and it isn't the one most generally taught. 3) Out loud ask for the spirits who love the name of (the name the Spirit revealed to you when you asked) to come near and bless your corporeal existence and assist you with your needs. 4) continue to converse with the Spirit in thought an as the corporeal evil ones attack you call out in the name you were given for the support of the corporeal entities who love that name (the name of the Spirit that made all things.) Once you have established a connection with the Spirit He will lead you in your thoughts and your experience will be to first think new thoughts as answers to your questions and needs and then find them to be fit with the word as you study it. It is not possible to understand the word of God without the Spirit. Also a good professional counselor might help but you say you have tried that. P.S. Be sure to contact The "Great Spirit that made all things" and know for sure where you are going before you go. There actually is not a worse spiritual place than the one you are now in but oblivion is no fun. If you are not going to a fun place don't go. I have been wanting to go for 40 years (perhaps more I cant remember for sure) I even know several methods but the Spirit keeps talking me out of it. Bet He will talk you out of it too.
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Rowan Rowan
I hope your kidding. You wanna kill yourself because you lost a blanket, just sounds ridiculous. Listen here, there are billions of children on the planet that wished they had a roof over their head, let alone a family that can afford therapy. Why dont you do something productive with your time and help someone less fortunate than yourself than a selfish thing like killing yourself over a blanket. Google "reasons to live" or something. There is too much in life to experience that you have no clue. So many things that give pleasure and joy. You havn't experienced a fraction of it at age 14. Too young. Please dont kill yourself.
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Nan Nan
please, whatever you do, do not kill yourself. about a month ago one of my best friends killed herself. she was in a situation quite like yours, she had no idea what else to do and she thought her life was worthless. she thought no on cared about her, but in truth, more people did than she could ever have imagined. i think that if she had known how much pain and suffering it has caused all of us, she may not have done it. you need to tell someone aside from your parents, let them help you. i know i wish i had known about my friends thoughts, so i couldve helped her. it is a very selfish thing to go off and kill yourself, it may relieve your pain, but cause pain for so many others out there. call a suicide hotline if you dont feel comfortable telling a friend. but please, dont kill yourself.
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Nan Originally Answered: Did Hitler actually ever kill anyone himself?
He might have killed his niece, remember police work isn't what it is today and many people at that time got away from murder charges The weight of 6 million Jews and the 10 million Russians is on his shoulders because he either ordered the deaths himself or knew about it and only encouraged more. In the case of killing the Russians, he ordered his troops not to take prisoners as they where seen as sub-human. This is man that said "The Jewish Question can only be solved by the Final Solution" If he had not come to power, non of these killings would have happened

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